"College is a refuge from hasty judgment"
Robert Frost


High school's over and everything went so fast.
Didn't realize that I'm already this big and I know that I can't play no more.
But hey.. That doesn't mean that I'm gonna miss The Ultimate College Party!

COLLEGE PARTY is something that everyone's been looking for!
Like hey, you will totally regret it if you don't participate in any college parties.

No matter if you're a nerd, or goth or punk or anything.
YOU MUST PREPARE YOURSELVES for the best time in your lives.

Booze, booties, boobies, man...


Okay enough for that thing...
Now we'll move.

There are so many challenges in college. IT IS DIFFERENT between high school and college.
If you're a mean girl in high school you'll have to keep it down.
Because there are much more bitches there lol, you don't wanna get into catfights don't you?

In high school, no matter how much sweat you've been wasted or you're not, you will still have good grades.
PHENOMENAL.
If you play around in college then you will have to start again from the bottom or maybe move into another university.

I've just realized it today man..

You'll have to figure out which major that clique with yourself.
There are so many majors that you'll be free to choose. For example...

Organic/Urban Farming NEW Allied Health Athletic Training Biology Chemistry Environmental Science Fisheries and Wildlife NEW Food Science Forest Management NEW Marine Science NEW Nursing (RN/BSN) Pharmacy Pre - Dental Pre - Medical Pre - Veterinary Medicine

Applied Science Aviation/Aeronautics Business/Finance Construction Management Emergency Management Hospitality Management Public Health NEW Recreation&Tourism Mgmt Sport Management Coming Soon! Forensic Science Entertainment Mgmt Military Science/ROTC

Aerospace Engineering Astronomy NEW Biomedical Engineering Chemical Engineering NEW Computer Science NEW Civil Engineering NEW Eletrical Engineering NEW Energy Science NEW Engineering NEW Industrial Engineering Imaging Science NEW Materials Science NEW Mathematics NEW Mechanical Engineering Coming Soon! Environmmental Engineering

Arts Management NEW Education English/Writing History Non-Profit Management Journalism Language Studies Peace/Conflict StudiesNEW Philosophy Political Science Social Science Women/Gender Studies Coming Soon! Human Service Mgmt.

Apparel/Textile Design Arcitecture Dance Film/Broadcast Fine/Studio Art Graphic Design Interior Design Industrial Design Landscape Architecture Music Theatre Urban Planning NEW Video Game Design Web Design/Media NEW

See that?

Confusing huh..

I personally chose Architecture.

I know it's silly. But I love to draw that's the reason why.

To choose, you'll have to think about it all over again, do some research and ask for guidance. 

That's it from me, if you're just same as me then have fun in college! 

MORE LIKE THIS

MORE LIKE THIS!

So today’s satnite (06-10-2012) gone really right, and bad on the other side.

What I’m tryna say is that, It has both sides.

I’m really happy that I spent my satnite with my girls and my crush!

But suddenly it turned out not be like what I ever wanted…

I was positively sure that he likes me like totally.

I was over the top thinking about that, then I fell really deep into this hole.

Well his name started from this capital : J.

We can call him Jason for now.

Jason is a shy kinda guy and he’s like younger than me.

I had this feeling since I met him the third day of school when I bumped out from grade 11.

That day, I just realized that he was really cute, kind, good-looking and quite.

I gave my number to him, and he called me, I mean, missed called me.

And we’re texting to each other.

And I thought he’s like really into me.

And I’m obviously wrong.

He already dated 2 girls since the first time he was in grade 10.

And I’m like single from the first semester of grade 12.

Like I’m passionately waiting for him.

GODDAMN.

But I kept it cool, like nothing’s wrong with that.

I met him today with the girls and we’re hangin out together.

My hopes are up, I thought he’ll like come to me and make me release my hopes one by one.

And things went wrong…

I dunno if he was like shy or he doesn’t like me or else.

All I know is that I’m the one that always come to him to have convos.

And sometimes, he walked far around me like I’m a monster.

I HAD A LONG TIME TO DECIDE WHAT CLOTHES TO WEAR, WHAT MAKE-UP TO PUT ON THIS MOTHAFUCKIN FACE, AND WHAT HEELS TO PUT ON MY SMALL FEET.

I’m like all prepared with good style!

I’M LIKE HOT, LIKE FUCK!!

GOD, it was all useless.

I’m tired and all I got is just piece of shit tearing my heart apart.

Like I tried to be fashionable but, HELL NO USE.

And there was another thing.

I acted mature in front of him.

But it was just, it had no difference between the silly me and the mature me.

It was all useless, everything I do is a waste of time.

He were looking at my friend’s direction.

I’m not sure if I’m being too possessive or else, but what I know is that he doesn’t appreciate my work.

So maybe he’s just not really into me.

And I’m not all pretty like what I expected.

I lost my confidence.

I’m all broken.

It’s no use tryna to be a confident girl, it doesn’t work that way with me.

I just don’t think we’re both, me and Jason, will make it.

OUR RELATIONSHIP.

I’m tired getting all my hopes up.

I’m tired being all confident.

I just don’t have any other purpose.

Even with a lower level guy, I mean, he’s like younger than me.

So it means that..

He rejected me in some kinda way.

There’s no need giving my love to guys.

And there’s no difference between girls and guys.

When I found someone perfect, that I love, they’re all suddenly gone.

Traumatizing.

I’m all fed up with that.

So long my love stories..

Well at least, I knew that he’s just some useless dildo, a BIG FAT JERK.

Kay I’m all done with you fuck face.

And don’t ever come near  me again you son of a bitch.

Don’t ever regret walked far away from me, if someday I’ll become a hot bitch you pussy.

If you wanna get near me again, make sure you practice how to give a good sex with yo mom sucka.

Man I am soooo unconsciously childish :p

Indonesia portal

Bunaken

Bunaken is an island of 8 km², part of the Bunaken National Marine Park. Bunaken is located at the northern tip of the island of Sulawesi, Indonesia. It belongs administratively to the municipality of Manado. Scuba diving attracts many visitors to the island.

Oceanic currents may explain, in part, why Bunaken National Marine Park has such a high level of biodiversity. Northeasternly currents generally sweep through the park but abundant counter currents and gyros related to lunar cycles are believed to be a trap for free swimming larvae. This is particularly true on the south side of the crescent-shaped Bunaken Island, lying in the heart of the park. 

A snorkeler or diver in the vicinity of Lekuan or Fukui may spot over 33 species of butterfly fish and numerous types of groupers, damsels, wrasses and gobies. The gobies, smallish fish with bulging eyes and modified fins that allow them to attach to hard surfaces, are the most diverse but least known group of fish in the park.

(Source : en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Bunaken)

The Story

So I went there with my family on 21th of August, by car, then by speedboat in 1 hour.

We've had so much fun there!

ON DA WAAYY To Bunaken Island.

CAMERA FREAKS!

Yea, show off your freakin tattoo brahh

Epic Me

Epic Me #2

Me and my lovely cousin, Diska. Creepily awkward.

Rockin Out!

Stop there u!

Mah DAD. Nice picture (*le cries)

Mah step-mom.

My cousin, comfortably lays on that corals.

Hell yea Diegooo. You blocked us!

TWINS? Nah, that's me and mah dad.

We're all in this together!

Petite me--

SHIT FACE! Photobomb.

SHOW'S OVER! Gotta go home. Silly peeps.

 There's still lots of pics I haven't upload but heck, this is enough :)
Well sharing things is fun.

And also---
I recommend you all peeps, Bunaken is FANTASTIC, RADICAL!

Y'all totally have to go there sometime ;)

“Everybody's Jealousy's Fool.”

This is all the BAD things in being jealous to other people.

I see a lot of pretty chicks out there and thinking to myself "Y ME NO PRETTY LIKE THAT BITCH?!" 
God, It's not like that I'm not grateful or something.
It's just, ugh---

FUCK THAT BITCH!


I've NO idea how to describe the difference between "Envy" and "Jealousy". They're both probably just the same shit right?

So lemme explain the situation station here.
It started from a social media called Facebook.
I saw my friend's friend pics and kinda stalked her because she had lots of STUNNING pics in her Facebook.

So basically, we could say that she's well--some kinda Street Model.

AHHH! Angles. Lips. Eyes. Hair. Skin. Height. WHOLE BODY, just PERFECT!
And I did some research that she's a hip-hop dancer too!
Wow, just wow.

But then, I just realized that I've met her somewhere, that time, in a mall, in person. 
GOSH, now I remember!

She's now 20.
That's why, THAT IS WHY SHE LOOK SO DAMN PRETTEEH.
And what about me?
I'm 16, still a high school student, and obviously a mothafuckin HOBO.

*sigh* life's unfair.
Pretty girls looks pretty and well the other's just ordinary :(
This is so, very, sad peeps.

 I am-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------officially, obviously, definitely pumped here!

The only thing that's GOOD with being JEALOUS is that, we'll try to be a better person than we're now. Although in every ways lol.

Wait till I graduate! I'll make ya suck your own asshole you asshole.
Ah---Jealousy, I've never been better.

Girls, girls, girls...

You'll never gonna understand a girl's heart.
Which is really complicated.


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A broken home is a situation in which the parents of a household have separated or divorced or otherwise do not function according to accepted societal norms.




“Let's remember the children who come from broken homes, surrounded by crime, drugs, temptation, their peers having babies out of wedlock, but who still manage to get a good education despite the many obstacles they face every day.”

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Well, I was 12 when my parents actually divorced.

My father's 5 years younger than my mom. It means that my mom's older-- GIRL'S RULE.
Mom was really mean to my dad, and dad dealt with it cold minded.

I  remember the time they were fighting about something (which I don't understand).
Mom yelled loudly, and dad punched the door, guess what? My dad broke the door :O 
DAMN. He's a tan HULK.
While I was eating chicken nuggets with ketchup.
I almost cry back then, but I decided to not CRY in front of them.
I tried my best to make them see, that I'm strong enough in that situation. And they treated me the wrong way.
They fought in front of me without knowing my feelings. 

That was the first and the last time I saw my parents fought.
And it was 5 years ago.

After that my dad dated this chick.
I cried cause I saw them talked to each other and stuff.
My dad never told me that he's gonna date another woman besides my MOM.
I knew that chick was someone more than just a friend.
My dad apologized to me, said some stuff like a normal peeps would do when it comes to apologizing.
But I wasn't really focused back then.
I felt weird, broken-hearted.

But, hell. Now that chick is my step mom.
She's 28 and my dad's 37.
Way too different than the way my mom and my dad was.
I accepted it.

My dad married again when I was 13.
I didn't come to their marriage lol.
Because I was busy with my school things, and I was outta town.
I think my step mom disappointed that I wasn't there to see their marriage.
So as my dad, but my dad would know why.

My mom looked a lil bit jealous when she heard about the marriage.
HA! I just know. I mean, I'm her own child, what would possibly go wrong? :D
I was thinking "If you don't wanna get burn, don't even think to start a fire".
Silly parents. That's what you both get when you decided to divorce!

And now I'm like a ball.
Moves to different places from my mom, to my dad.

But good thing bout that, is that I've got a lot of friends and I've learned different languages, foods, my my.

I can't even think about my separated parents and else.

And now my mom's close to a ducth guy.
She's getting married :)

“When life gives you lemon you gotta make lemonade”

So last week my cousins went to my hometown, Manado, spent their lil holiday time.
And it was like, four of em.
1 Hole, 3 Sticks. Is that clear enough for y'all?

No?
It means one girl and three guys.

Maybe we can call it some sorta "reunion".
They're 16-23 years old.
And they're all soooo damn HOT!
Goodness, what kinda trick did their parents made in their process?

Kay kay.. So I've got a crush on the third one.
Let's call him "Dylan".
He's handsome, tall, light skin, HOT, tattoo, rich, cars, beautiful eyes, sexy lips, smokes, young adult, but there's one thing pretty odd about him.
He's well kinda quite, he doesn't like to talk too much.

Hell, I mean, He's like "The Man Who Had Everything" except the confidence to talk.
And I'm his opposite. I talk too much :D Besides that, I'm pretty short, tanned skin (Snooki Wannabe ; Flyer Characteristic ; *dot, dot, nobody asks*) and I don't smoke.

U can see the difference here!

LOL right, I look so fucking short -_-
So awkward..
I'm not wearing any high heels there.
GOD WHY, I should wear them when I took that pic. (*le sad)





Dylan is 19 y.o, and he's in university now.
Is it a crime when If I'm in love with my own cousin, in other words my family member?
LMFAO, Hell no. It's just a lil crush :D

He's super quite, and all I did was talk and ask.
That's the only way to make him give reactions.
It was an easy job for me cause I talk too much :D
It's funny that, I fantasizes about him making out and doing ridiculous thing with me.
LOL, it's a teen-thing right? Use your IMAGINATION people.

(F.I.S.H)

That AWKWARD moment when (Not on purpose) I saw him that morning, opened door,  before he woke up.. Man I saw his morning erection!
LMFAO.
And I made some fantasies and stuff, puberty right?
Everything's gonna be funny and entertaining when you have a dirty mind! 
I dunno why, when I see his face, I'm all horny XP
Hello? Remember, "Cousins" ???

Maybe I'm a lil too obsessed with sex huh? But I guess everybody obsesses sex, right?
(*le smiles)

So he left, with the other cousins and his mother just today.
And I'm retarded.
God my precious eye candy's officially gone.
I'll catch him later, when I graduate, next year.

And that's how I loved my own cousin.
Kinda stupid, idiotic. But I heck!

It feels weird how we used to live the other way than now. 

I went from ZERO to HERO!

I'm a BIG dork in Junior High School. At grade 7, I'm like fairly popular because everybody knows that I can sing and draw and I got some sorta popular friends too. And consider that I'm not that dumb, I'm confident to hang out with them. 

At grade 8, because of my FOOLISHNESS, I became friends with a dorky loner named Gina a.k.a Vagina! I'm unconsciously too kind and GOD, I'M SCREWED!
My life became miserable ever since that time. 
I didn't know that she was lying on the bottom of the social lines.
They're making fun of her cause she's this over the top, disgusting, drama queen.
(*le sigh)

And I DID NOT KNOW THAT.

All I know about her, is that she's miserably kind. I mean kind and caring.
I begged for her food every lunchtime.
I asked for her help every time the laziness comes when it's time to write.
And she's a good listener.
She was acting like that because she doesn't have any friends. Only two friends. Me and my best friend named Pretty.

And in the middle of the semester, shit just happened.
I cutted my hair like a boy. TOMBOY.
Just because I saw a celebrity trends a short hair on television. 
WHAT THE FUCK? I know right?
And since that day, I'm officially a TOMBOY.
F.I.S.H (FUCK IT SHIT HAPPENS)
I lose my attractiveness and my beauty!

You know what they say, "You should be grateful for everything that happens in life"
So because I was a TOMBOY, I acted like a boy. And I accepted that.
It's not like because I was a TOMBOY, I am a lesbian.
OMAGOSH! No way, that's nasty! 
I got a crush too, I'm just straight as an arrow.
But I'm too shy to say it to them, I'm still a girl, and I may scared them with my looks as a TOMBOY :D

I'm the first TOMBOY girl with boyish hair that time.
And I surprised that there's a chick who copied me, being a tomboy.
HAHA not bad for a TOMBOY huh?

And at grade 9, I graduated with shame because of my short hair LOL.
I've got no boyfriend, no fame, no face.
At least I've got new friends, BETTER, than Gina! :D
My best friends are Kezia and Pretty. They're HAWT LMAO.

It's the end of Junior High School.

NOW IT'S PARTAAAAY TIMEEE!
I'm a freakin High Schooler now bitches!!!
Time to shine and to be on top.
It's really tired being the underdog all the time ;)

I started High School with girly look, extension hair, big smile on my face, and bunch of popular girls in my side.
They keep tellin me on how to walk, how to talk, what to do, what to wear, what extracurricular to choose and many more!
I'm feelin so much like a girl, and tingly inside.
Which reminds me of my past, the fact that I'm a TOMBOY.
It's now a nightmare for me.

And one of my friend named Maria, asked me to join the Cheerleading Squad.
And I was like "Okay now it's my chance to prove the world that I'm better than what y'all think of me!". I'm motivated, so, I accepted the offer she gave!
Now I'm a Cheerleader, not bad for an ex-tomboy person ;)

Consider my physique, that I'm a small-petite kinda girl, they voted me as a top person/flyer. It feels great to jump above the others!
I keep practicing with my ICC Gliders Cheerleading Squad, harder and harder.
Every stretches, stunts, jumps, tumblings, contests I feel fiery inside.
It feels great too to hang out with my cheerleader friends, male and female :D
Some of the male cheerleaders are gays, LOL. They're so funny and crazy.

I've got so many friends, from the Cheerleading Squad, School Council Members, and of course my girls! FAMONIZER!

World really is spinning around y'all.
So it's not possible for us to be a better person than who we are now.
Just don't hide your true personality to somebody you're not.
Everybody has their own shine inside their heart. ;)